Matilda’s story

My name is Matilda. I’m 15 years old and I come from Sweden. Here is my story.

In school, I never had many friends, just two. But for 6 years, these “friends” of mine tormented me and used me for their own well-being. I got into the sixth grade and they

left school but now, there was people that almost took the step into hurting me and not only by words but by hand. I’ve never felt so down and when the hitting stopped,

everything went on mentally. When I was home alone I would have a nail-clipper in my hands and slowly scratching on my wrists but being afraid to really cut. Blood have always freaked me out. But everything was so real for me at that time. I would lye awake at night, sobbing and not being able to do anything because I felt so miserable. I would literally cry in my sleep, dreaming of the horrors I faced everyday.  

Also, my mom and dad were never really friends. When I was a kid, my dad would say so many bad things about my mom. That time, I didn’t really understand what was

happening but when he moved back to his home-country, Australia, I started to realize what a idiot my father really is. He has been using me as a way to get 

back at my mom for everything he has done. 

By the time my dad moved back I found a band that has made me free from all my worries and problems and that band is My Chemical Romance. Their music has given me strength to continue with my life and hopefully, one day make my father and everyone who has hurt me understand that I won’t be destroyed by them. They can never get to me because I know that I’m stronger than them. It doesn’t scare me to think that I might end up alone one day because the lyrics state: I am not afraid to keep on living! 

When I saw a documentary on swedish TV about when My chemical Romance visited Sweden Gerard stood on stage and said as loud as possible that you should “stay exactly who you are. ‘Cause you’re stronger than them. You’re faster than them. And you’re a lot better looking!” and it just went straight into my heart because I knew that it was true. That everything would be okay. 

I can’t thank you enough MCR but I truly thank you.